Well that was sad

I obviously did not finish my emotional eating journal, but I t’s not because I gave up! I discovered something interesting about myself on that journey that will stick with me forever. I don’t use food to curb my emotions, I use it to calm my anxiety. My relationship with food has been a tumultuous one but not because I eat when I’m sad- I eat when I’m anxious. If I feel myself getting anxious, I sometimes confuse it with low blood sugar and start wolfing down whatever I can. Same with if I feel a headache coming on, I get anxious about having a migraine and I start eating because for whatever reason my brain thinks that eating will stop a migraine. 

Since my break from writing, I’ve done a lot of self-discovery. I found that I work better when I have a plan in mind and that I need motivation to get anything done. I started Weight Watchers recently and I know it’s what’s right for me. I’ve done it in the past and had great success, but I’m not a kid anymore like I was when I first tried it. It’s going to take some work. I’ve found inspiration in seeing Matt’s cousin, Maimee, and her husband. In the last two years, they have lost a total of 130 pounds and are in a good place spiritually. They follow WW and workout every single day, but they also don’t restrict themselves from having fun. They have found the perfect balance and I am so envious. I cannot wait to get to that point in my journey. 

I’ve joined a Facebook group dedicated to helping people find inspiration and tips/tricks to lose weight and gain confidence. Those people are so encouraging and motivating that it’s insane. I have found my people for this new lifestyle. 

I know it may seem like I’m bouncing from fad diet to fad diet faster than most people change their underwear, but that’s part of the plan; you have to find what works for you and that takes time and exploration of what is out there. 

I hope that one day I can inspire someone as much as Maimee and Jesse have influenced me. 

But for now, I want to share a drink that Maimee told me about and I have been OBSESSED with ever since. It’s only 2 points on WW and tastes better than any other drink you could imagine getting at Starbucks (minus the Pink Drink which is amazing). I don’t have a name for it, but I have it saved in my WW app as “Protein Iced Coffee” because it is packed with 30g of protein to keep you feeling full and satisfied for hours. That, coupled with the espresso, make it my favorite drink. 

Protein Iced Coffee

  • 2 espresso shots (Starbucks or otherwise) in a large cup filled with ice
  • Your favorite flavor of Premier Protein. (Mine is Vanilla)
  • Optional: sugar free flavor shot

Once you have your espresso in the cup with ice, make sure you add more ice to your liking. I prefer all the ice, I love cold drinks. Then add the Premier Protein shake of your choice and boom, you have a delicious and nutritious coffee drink for only $2 and 2 WW points! 

What is your favorite WW recipe? Let me know on twitter or instagram @realtalkwithdee and use the hashtag #deesweightlossjourney



Writing Space: The World Tour

Since we’ve moved, I haven’t updated where I blog from. Come to think of it, I never even mentioned where I was blogging from in the old house, but I suppose it’s a bit late for that. I don’t think the new people, while they seemed very nice, would enjoy a total stranger taking a picture in their living room of where my loveseat used to be. So I guess I’ll Just show y’all the new spot that I write from now. To be honest, most of the posts that have come out in the last few weeks have been from either Starbucks or from a local library (there’s two and they’re both AMAZING) or basically anywhere that has free wifi…so this post might be longer than expected.


First and foremost, the place that I enjoy writing the most is right here, in my dinette, looking out at the lake. It’s comfortable and there’s a sort of peacefulness that you get from looking out at the water when you’re stuck looking for a word. Sometimes, when M isn’t around, I like to slink down into my seat and put my feet on his side. That’s mostly when I’m on Pinterest though because, let’s be honest here, no one needs to be super focused when they’re browsing Pinterest. When I write at home- err- the trailer, I typically have a beverage in hand (preferably these iced coffees, but more on those next month…wiiiiink) and most of the time I have music playing. I’m heavy into my Spotify account and I’m curating a few playlists that I hope to share with you guys in the future. I don’t really have a preference as far as time of day goes for writing; my creativity strikes at weird times. It always has, I recently had an assignment in English to write about my writing process and my editing process. This was interesting for me because I’ve never been the type of person who likes to write rough drafts of papers- I’m more “shoot from the hip” than “write read revise.” It got me in to trouble when I was younger because I had to turn in roughs even though I’m not the kind of person who needs one. So back to this assignment for class; the teacher actually asked if he could use my paper in future classes because I have such a unique way of writing that he (being from middle of nowhere Illinois) had ever seen before. Every post I read about “What You Should Do Before You Hit Publish” said that going over and reading what you wrote was something of epic importance, but that’s just not my style…


Whoa, I got waaayyy off topic there and I’m sorry. That’s another quirk about my writing style, it’s like…typing vomit, yanno, like word vomit from Mean Girls? I can’t stop typing once I start. I’ve always had that conversational tone to my writing, which is going to be very hard to overcome seeing as how I’m hoping to major in English (with a minor in Environmental Studies). Yes, I’m 28 and I still don’t have a college degree yet. But I did just complete my freshman year in college and I have to say that I loved it. And I got a 3.6 all while working full-time. But that’s a whole other post in its own.

The other places that I write are sporadic. It all depends on where we (M and I) feel like going that day. Some days it’s Starbucks and some days it’s the library. Once, it was even a diner.

018ef94576e904419474407ba1162faa19b5d3a222*OK there’s a story behind the name….and yes, it was hilarious when they called out 2 cold brews for a-hole*

But my second favorite place to write is Starbucks. Which I know is cliché and it makes me throw up a little because I’m one of those people who *goes to Starbucks to write in their blog* (imagine I’m saying that in a super pretentious voice). But I can see why people like going there to get work done. I’ve gotten a few post written there before and it only cost one Venti Iced Caramel Macchiato with Coconut Milk and a Lemon Loaf. God. I am pretentious…In all honesty though, it is a great place to get work done. Though I rarely am without headphones, their music is nice to work to and it smells like coffee all the time. It gives me a chance to catch up on my people watching too, a favorite past time of mine. But I sometimes change my screen so that people who walk behind me can’t see that I’m just a another cliché. I do it for that and because most of the time I’m watching my long list of “Watch Later” videos on YouTube, which is also a whole other post in itself.


Lastly, M and I like to spend some days at the local libraries. There is one right down the street from the RV park that is home for a few more weeks and the other is a short drive away. The one closest to us is my personal favorite because they have these sweet desks that are the perfect size for getting work done. Plus its super close to home. The other library is a little more uncomfortable for me only because they don’t really have tables for you to do your work on, unless you go into the “Quiet Room” to work. Which is fine if it’s just us, but with other people in there, I’m afraid that I’m going to like, break the rules or something.


Like I said, I prefer to write at home, but I can write anywhere. I’ve started posts on my phone while I was walking around Walmart and finished them the next day at Starbucks. I can write anywhere because it is my passion.


Do you guys have a favorite place to write? Let me know in the comments or on Twitter or Instagram @iblog1988