Everything in Moderation?

This is something we in the weight loss community hear very often, you can have everything you want but in moderation. I think I’m one of those special people who can’t do that. 

It took me a little bit of time to really see results from WW and I started getting discouraged. So instead of eating my feelings, I put that frustration into waking 3+ miles at least 3x a week. To keep myself accountable, I walk with my neighbor and best friend Mary who has the same goal of health as I do. 

So finally after 2 weeks, I saw results. When I lost my first 7lbs I was ecstatic; but I let myself have a bit too much freedom. I was under the impression that I could eat a few cookies here and there, and if I’m being honest more than that. I got lost in the moderation of it all. I was using up my daily smart points and dipping into my weeklies because I thought it was ok. 

Boy was I wrong. Don’t get me wrong, it felt great to eat what I wanted “in moderation” but the scale made me feel otherwise. Since that first loss, I have only lost an additional 3lbs bringing the grand total for one month to 10lbs. 

For someone who has as much as I do, more than 100lbs to lose, the weight should be melting off. 

So I reassessed what I had been eating and discovered that, even in moderation, my body can’t have cookies every day. Now as a treat maybe once a month, yes I will be more than happy to allow myself a few cookies. And I will savor them. I will enjoy them because I don’t eat them all the time. 

Moderation may work for some people, but it sure as shit won’t work for me. 

I’m feeling ravenous today. Nothing has satisfied me. 

I didn’t walk today yet either. It’s killing me. 

But I’m hungry. So so hungry. 

I’ve eaten well today. But I’m starving right now. I’m at work. I didn’t bring food with me. And I’m starving. 

I’ve drank enough water to satisfy a camel. I’ve had lunch already. And I’m hungry. 

It’s probably because I’m bored. And probably because I’m tired. I didn’t take my pills yesterday and it’s throwing me off. Today is the first day in a week that I snoozed my alarm. I feel groggy and fatigued. I know rest days are important but I’m not willing to rest until I get what I want. 

So when I get off work, I’m changing into my workout clothes and driving home to walk. I was going to go to the gym upstairs but it’s too beautiful outside to be inside. 

On the plus side, I’m not feeling fat today. I feel empowered today. 
XOXO

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Feeling extra emotional this evening. 

I miss my friends and family back home something fierce. 

I’m working at the rink I rarely work at and it’s making me realize how much I love my home rink. I am lucky enough to work with my significant other and some of the best people in the world. But being here, I miss Matt even though I saw him this morning. 

It’s national best friend day which makes me miss my best friend so much it hurts. 

I haven’t seen my parents in almost a year and I haven’t seen my sister in almost two years. I miss them all so much. 

But most of all, my emotional state is coming from this book. 


It Was Me All Along is a gut wrenching tale of a woman who used food in times of stress, loneliness, and heartache. As a big girl myself, I am finding a lot in common with this book and author. 

Today was my weigh-in day. I am sad to say, the number on the scale has not moved at all. But someone in the group that I am in on Facebook posted this quote today that really has lifted me up. 

So what you’re not where you want to be. At least you’re not where you used to be. Don’t let that discourage you, let it encourage you. All that matters is that you’re taking steps forward, so keep moving forward. Be proud of yourself. 

I’m not sure who it was that said that, but I needed it today. I’ve been killing it with my workouts this week and I’ve been tracking everything in WW. Even though the scale hasn’t moved, I’m doing what’s best for me. It’s a tough pill to swallow for sure but one that I need to remember. I’m doing everything right and everything in my power to become the person I was meant to be.  

XOXO

Doing this for me

I’m doing this for me”

I haven’t thought too much about why I’m doing what I’m doing. There’s the obvious reasons of wanting to be health and live longer to see where life takes me. But I haven’t really thought too much deeper than that. One thing that I’ve come to realize, is that you have to want it for yourself, and not for anyone else. 

I’m sitting outside in this beautiful, sunny day thinking about what I’m going to do with my day. I’m catching up on my YouTube and one of my favorite influencers is Laura Lee. She recently posted a video that talks about how she has gotten where she is and why she hasn’t lost followers and how she stays motivated. In it she’s talking to us, her subscribers, about investing in ourselves and no one else. “I’m not a gambler, but if I was I’d bet on me” (paraphrased) is a quote that she lives by. Of course she loves her husband and her mom and her cats but above all, she loves herself. 

In this journey that I am on, I often have to remember that I am doing this for me. Of course I have the support of my friends and family, but I have to be my biggest supporter. I’m investing in myself by getting fit and losing weight. I’m investing in myself by getting healthy so that I can have experiences. 

Several months ago, Matt and I went on a trip back east for Christmas. On that flight, I had to use the seatbelt extender for the first time. That was a real wake up call for me because we want to be able to travel together and have all these fun experiences. But with the shape I was in at the time, that was next to impossible. Since then, I don’t get winded walking long distances and I can run again; but I am nowhere near where I want to be. 

So I am investing in myself. Only I can do this for me. 

Hard work and determination will get me where I want to be. 

Only I can get where I need to be. 

So follow my journey, give me tips, and I will share mine with you. 

It takes a group to move a boulder, but you have to put the effort in yourself. 

How can we help eachother? Let me know using the hashtag #deesweightlossjourney on twitter and instagram so that we may inspire ourselves and others.

XOXO

I LOVE PIZZAAAA

So I had a rough day the other day. Not a rough day I guess, but more of a sad day. Here I am thinking I’m hot shit and lost all this weight cause my clothes feel good and I have more energy blah blah blah. But nooooooooo. I even bought a 3x shirt that is a little baggy on me from a store that I have been having to buy 3x cause that’s all that fits. 

I had to go to my doctor for a follow up for a few things as well as I wanted my thyroid tested. Well when they weighed me, I was shocked by the number on the scale. I had gained so much and was so upset. But I didn’t want to let that get me down. 

Since then I have eaten on track and not skipped writing anything down. I can’t mess this up, not this time. And I won’t. I even made sure that I had points left over to celebrate my neighbors last party before she goes home for the summer! I’m so proud of myself and happy that I have chosen this as my new lifestyle. 

With that, I wanted to share with you guys a little pizza recipe that I made up for dinner the other day. It’s a little unconventional considering that it’s made with cheddar cheese and spaghetti sauce but her, you gotta do what you can.

Amazing 6pt Pizza


  • 1 Joseph’s Honey wheat flatbread (3pt=1flatbread)
  • Safeway Kitchens pasta sauce (1pt=1/4cup)
  • Kraft Natural Cheese Fat Free Shredded Cheddar (1pt=5/8cup)
  • Horseless Turkey Pepperoni (1pt=12pcs)
  • Artichoke Hearts (0pts)

Combine ingredients to liking and bake at 350 for 7 minutes. 


See? Super easy. And it’s only 6pts for the whole thing! I was so satisfied, I was shocked. 

But of course, we can’t forget dessert! Matt and I split half a pint of the Chocolate flavored Halo Top.  It tastes like a fricken Frosty from Wendy’s! But even better cause it’s got way less shit in it and it’s only 2 points for 1/2 cup! Seriously tasty but seriously expensive, like it will be for special occasions and that time of the month ONLY lol. 


What recipes for success do you have? Share them with me in the comments or by using the hashtag #deesweightlossjourney on twitter or instagram! 

XOXO