In the few days leading up to Thanksgiving (my fav holiday btw), I find myself taking stock of what I am thankful for in this world. In my family, as a tradition, we would go around the table and say what we were thankful for. I haven’t really ever though too too hard about it. But this year is different. 

I’m getting older and I’m realizing how lucky I am. 

I have a loving family, who has accepted my loving boyfriend into their arms. I have Matt’s family, who I love like my own family. I have a place to live. I have a job. I am surrounded by amazing people. 

I have lived a very blessed life. I didn’t grow up rich and I sure as hell don’t live lavishly now. But I have had it really good. As I grow up, I realize that it’s not what you have but who you have. It’s about the memories, not the material possessions. It’s about love. 

And in this tumultuous year that we have had, I find myself really happy. I’m happy that I get to wake up every morning with a smile on my face. I’m happy because I get to live with the man I love. I’m happy because I’m here. 

What are you thankful for? 

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Gloom and Bloom

It’s such a gloomy day out today. It’s one of those days that makes you just want to curl up in bed with a cup of hot coco and a good book. But of course I’m at work…

I’m working 6 or 7 days in a row so that I can have some time off next week. I’m so grateful to be with a company that allows its employees to have time off for the holidays. The last few places that I’ve worked have had blackout periods and required work days (Black Friday and Christmas Eve) so it’s refreshing and exciting to be with this company. They truly appreciate me here and I’m so happy! 

Next week, Matt and I will travel to Missouri to spend Thanksgiving with his aunts, uncles and cousins! Oh and his mother! I’m so excited! At first Cindy wasn’t originally going to be joining us, but she called us on Tuesday to surprise us with the news that she would be joining us. I’m so thankful to have a “mother-in-law”that I get along with so well. I hear all of these horror stories of people I know not getting along with their in-laws. I feel very lucky to have such a loving woman in my life who gave birth to my favorite human on earth. I should note that I call her mom MIL because even though Matt and I are not married, we’ve been together for nearly 4 years and most people call us husband and wife anyways. 

Last Thanksgiving was the first that Matt and I hosted. My parents and his mother came. It was a wonderful time and I was so happy to have spent it with my parents who I don’t see as often as I would like to. While I enjoyed hosting the event, I’m so happy that it’s going to be a laid back time for me this year. Matt’s family is so welcoming to me and love me like I’m family. I just feel blessed (#blessed). 

I’m glad I have something to look forward to because this weather has got me real down. It’s trying to play me, hard. I’m not having it. My depression and anxiety have been at an all time high coming down off the election; I don’t want to discuss the election in here, but I would like to mention that I have since deleted the Facebook app off my phone because of the hurtful words being said between friends because of the election. 

Self care has been heavy on my mind, I’m doing a lot of praying and meditating. It’s helping a lot to be honest. I haven’t prayed since I was told I had to when I was younger. It always seemed unnatural to me because I never felt like it was my choice. But in the last few months, I find myself doing it often. I pray for my friends, family, my health, my happiness, and for the world to calm down and find joy. For meditation, I typically just find some non-lyrical music and focus on my breathing and relaxing tense muscles. 

I can feel myself getting back into a normal routine, getting up early and going to be early, skin care, and makeup. It’s refreshing and just in time. I want to be my happiest self for the holidays so I can really soak up all the love and joy I find myself surrounded by. 

Think happy thoughts and happiness will be there. 

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Phantom Shoelace?

So you know how people get “phantom vibrations” and “phantom phone” issues when they feel/hear their phone go off? Well I’m getting that with my shoes today! I’m so used to wearing my Etnies shoes that come untied all the time that I have been feeling a floppy lace on my foot. 

It’s so weird, I guess I would call it “phantom shoelace” because I can’t think of a better name for it. When I walk around, I can feel a shoelace untied on my right foot where my other shoes come untied all the time. 

Does this happen to anyone else?

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Why I changed the name

I want to and need to be more serious about my postings. Even though it’s been tough to find the time to write, I have a thousand ideas written in Notes and ready to be brought to fruition. 

I felt the name of my blog wasn’t a true interpretation of what I want it to be about. As many of you know, I’m real af and have no problem speaking my mind. And that’s what I want my brand to be. No faking. Just me. 

So last night, at a hockey game no less, I decided to change the name. Matt was a little miffed that I missed most of the second period but whatevs. It needed to be done. 

This is the new name. I’m not 100% sure I love it but I knew I needed to step away from iBlog because it didn’t feel geniune. 

I have many ideas of what I want to do, mostly starting YouTube, but I want it all to be truly me. 

Real Talk.