Right now, you would think my life is carefree. I haven’t been to work in almost 2 months and I’ve been living in a campground for the last few weeks. It is pretty nice not having any real responsibilities (I have a commitment to post at least once a day for you guys) but it’s far from carefree.
I guess in comparison to other people who work all the time and have like a family and shit, my life is “carefree” but to me – not so much. I have so much that I need to worry about: money, school, work, bills, etc.
Everyday, I get up and stress about what I’m doing that day. Most days we run errands (having a small fridge means we grocery shop more) and go somewhere that has wifi and spend a while there. Some days I have doctors appointments, some days I have nothing. The last two days I’ve actually been under the weather so I haven’t really done much. Plus we’re in a severe heat warning or something like that. It’s like 92 out but feels like 115.
Everyday I stress about when I’m going to go back to work. I’ve been applying to jobs like crazy even though I’m not really allowed to go back to work until mid-August. I haven’t gotten a paycheck in almost a month. I don’t want to complain about that too much because I have a lot of support, and a lot of people are weird about money. I’ve never had a problem talking about money, but that’s just me.
Like I said before, compared to other people that I do have a more carefree life. I get to go fishing pretty much whenever I want. I can nap anytime of the day. I don’t have to be asleep or awake at any particular time. I have started 4 books and finished 2 books in less than 2 weeks (one I finished in less than 24 hours). And finally, I don’t have to work.
Wow, I really sound like I’m trying to rub this all in, I swear I’m not. And now that I’m looking back at that list, maybe I am living carefree…?
I think I need to lay down…lol (oh my god I did it again…)
Edit: Sorry for being all over the place in this post. I think I’m trying to make up for not being really present that much this week but I’m trying too hard. I think I’m gonna take the next few days off unless I feel better soon.